thanks giving.
i find myself picking up my camera less and less. and writing fewer and fewer words.
i am immersed in school, you know. i have conflicted views about this period and could probably create a sizable pro-con chart about it all.
#1 pro- i've been a steady calm. can you believe it? only one very, very emotional day in months. that emotional day had me wondering, "is this what my life was like when i was passionate?" then i decided that passion sucks.
#1 con- i've lost my gratitude goggles. my camera, this blog, they help me see what i would otherwise miss. so next semester i am taking fewer classes because i want to be more aware and thankful.
is it weird that i'm a little afraid that having less on my plate will bring back my moodiness? there's something about a predictable, booked life that keeps me serene. i know in the past i've said i like the ups and downs... but i've been feeling so normal lately. and i kinda like it.
#1 pro- i've been a steady calm. can you believe it? only one very, very emotional day in months. that emotional day had me wondering, "is this what my life was like when i was passionate?" then i decided that passion sucks.
#1 con- i've lost my gratitude goggles. my camera, this blog, they help me see what i would otherwise miss. so next semester i am taking fewer classes because i want to be more aware and thankful.
is it weird that i'm a little afraid that having less on my plate will bring back my moodiness? there's something about a predictable, booked life that keeps me serene. i know in the past i've said i like the ups and downs... but i've been feeling so normal lately. and i kinda like it.
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