that they might go and fall backward.
how does anybody do this?
line upon line. precept upon precept. here a little there a little.
i guess.
you know i hear that portion of scripture quoted A LOT but i've never actually looked it up until just now. the full verse is pretty... well i have mixed emotions about it. here, read.
"But the word of the Lord was unto them precept upon precept, precept upon precept; line upon line, line upon line; here a little, and there a little; that they might go, and fall backward, and be broken, and snared, and taken." (Isaiah 28:13)
wait, what? it's part of the plan to take one step forward and two steps back? not cool, robert frost.
i spent a day going through our cupboards eliminating things that i once would have considered very healthy. then matt and i got into an argument again.
we fought because i thought he was less committed to our success with ossi when he pointed out some cereal he thought was fine but that i had taken off the menu. basically i was being so stupidly sensitive.
okay, as a mother it's really hard not to feel alone through this trial. this guessing game of what is truth when there are so many positions on behavioral issues in children. i have the most wonderful, saint of a husband but i would be irritated with ANYONE at this point. off and on all day i've been reading random studies online, links from friends, nutrition guidelines for special needs children. so i end up acting on my gut more than anything else. and when you ask somebody to give up their favorite cereal on a gut feeling, of course their going to give you the raised eyebrow.
actually, i was also being dumb to him because he picked up some cheap yogurt at the store that had artificial dye that produced a hellish day. he was not picking money over child. first off, it's just not that simple. and secondly, it was an accident.
so, i've heard that parents of special-needs children are among the most unhappy in their marriages. also not cool, robert frost. i am getting why. there is little time to talk things through and when we do finally get a chance we're already highly irritated due to our daily adventures in collaborative-problem-solving and our digestive issues from a changing diet. oh, lentils and beans, doin' that thing you do.
my dad came and watched the kids last night so we could hit the play "our town" which was exactly what we needed. a rude awakening to the reality of this fleeting life we're leading. i cried like a baby. then we went out to eat french fries, which was not actually a good idea. beans and lentils and french fries. and three hours of kid-wrangling church the next day. woof.
anyway, we wrote down our budget on a napkin and realized we've been spending more than we have. matt sort-of knew, but i didn't. so there was more to the yogurt thing than i could have guessed at the time. oh, there's another reason why special needs families are so stressed. finances have to stretch a lot further for copays and organic (i despise the word) produce.
so we figure out how to do this. here a little there a little. and apparently it's part of the plan to have set-backs.
which is reassuring since we got in a fight when we got home because he said he was too tired to read the explosive child book AND the scriptures so we just had to read the scriptures. and i was all like, "fine" (with a huffy roll over in bed). so dumb.
i love that man so freaking much. why am i so mad at him all of the time?
you know, we're not going to be on the same page all of the time.
their's just too much homework for us to get it all done together. divide and conquer, right?
divide.
no, there's got to be more to this. come on next line. come on next precept.
line upon line. precept upon precept. here a little there a little.
i guess.
you know i hear that portion of scripture quoted A LOT but i've never actually looked it up until just now. the full verse is pretty... well i have mixed emotions about it. here, read.
"But the word of the Lord was unto them precept upon precept, precept upon precept; line upon line, line upon line; here a little, and there a little; that they might go, and fall backward, and be broken, and snared, and taken." (Isaiah 28:13)
wait, what? it's part of the plan to take one step forward and two steps back? not cool, robert frost.
i spent a day going through our cupboards eliminating things that i once would have considered very healthy. then matt and i got into an argument again.
we fought because i thought he was less committed to our success with ossi when he pointed out some cereal he thought was fine but that i had taken off the menu. basically i was being so stupidly sensitive.
okay, as a mother it's really hard not to feel alone through this trial. this guessing game of what is truth when there are so many positions on behavioral issues in children. i have the most wonderful, saint of a husband but i would be irritated with ANYONE at this point. off and on all day i've been reading random studies online, links from friends, nutrition guidelines for special needs children. so i end up acting on my gut more than anything else. and when you ask somebody to give up their favorite cereal on a gut feeling, of course their going to give you the raised eyebrow.
actually, i was also being dumb to him because he picked up some cheap yogurt at the store that had artificial dye that produced a hellish day. he was not picking money over child. first off, it's just not that simple. and secondly, it was an accident.
so, i've heard that parents of special-needs children are among the most unhappy in their marriages. also not cool, robert frost. i am getting why. there is little time to talk things through and when we do finally get a chance we're already highly irritated due to our daily adventures in collaborative-problem-solving and our digestive issues from a changing diet. oh, lentils and beans, doin' that thing you do.
my dad came and watched the kids last night so we could hit the play "our town" which was exactly what we needed. a rude awakening to the reality of this fleeting life we're leading. i cried like a baby. then we went out to eat french fries, which was not actually a good idea. beans and lentils and french fries. and three hours of kid-wrangling church the next day. woof.
anyway, we wrote down our budget on a napkin and realized we've been spending more than we have. matt sort-of knew, but i didn't. so there was more to the yogurt thing than i could have guessed at the time. oh, there's another reason why special needs families are so stressed. finances have to stretch a lot further for copays and organic (i despise the word) produce.
so we figure out how to do this. here a little there a little. and apparently it's part of the plan to have set-backs.
which is reassuring since we got in a fight when we got home because he said he was too tired to read the explosive child book AND the scriptures so we just had to read the scriptures. and i was all like, "fine" (with a huffy roll over in bed). so dumb.
i love that man so freaking much. why am i so mad at him all of the time?
you know, we're not going to be on the same page all of the time.
their's just too much homework for us to get it all done together. divide and conquer, right?
divide.
no, there's got to be more to this. come on next line. come on next precept.
Comments
Remember, "United We Stand, Divided We Fall." (or in other words, see Mark 3:25). I'd like to think that when marriage is done right it can be synergistic, but to be honest we haven't got there yet either.
By the way, yogurt is way easy to make. I make mine all the time and I know exactly what goes into it. :) I posted about it about this time last year.
Lucie
It sound simple but sometimes just hearing it can calm me down and remind me that we are unified as parents. I thought that maybe y'all could come up with your own code word. It has to be said gently and with love for it to work, though.