Monday, February 17, 2014

love and the human heart.

These last few weeks I have been learning the anatomy of the heart.

When we learned about the eyes I marveled at every detail I saw played out. When we learned about the ears I would sit and listen to the background noise and think my way through my ear into my brain. The nose, I smelled everything I touched. Now with the heart, I am constantly checking myself for a pulse. I am in awe at this life-giving-pump. I want to know more than anatomy. I want to see the heart as a doctor and as a poet.
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botanical heart via here.

This woman is the doctor-poet of dreams. I could watch her, study her. How I want to be like her.

when we were younger.

we decided that the longer we are married, the more pleasant nostalgia we get out of being together. it really doesn't matter where we go in town. the places all have some sort of memory attached. what's more is we could move to a completely new city and still feel like we were eating at our long-standing favorite restaurant when we go out. this because the nostalgic feelings are induced by him and me focusing on each other. the setting is just gravy. or tzatziki, as was the case on valentine's day.
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we aren't always exciting, you know. some times i have an ear infection. oh, ears. you look so pretty with those new gems matthew gifted us, but ears, you hurt real bad.
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i must have apologized for being boring and tired about a dozen times. matt told me every time, "don't apologize. it's ok. i love you and i'm sorry you are sick."
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when we were younger almost every date we went on consisted of us eating some good food, then walking around and taking pictures. i can't tell you how many random pictures i have of us standing next to signs or sitting on benches or doing ridiculous stuff. i also have many pictures of the scenes. city lights, rosy gardens, playgrounds and parks. but the nostalgia doesn't come from those scenes, it comes from his face in the pictures of him. it comes every time we take new photos.
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my favorite is when someone walks up on us when we're taking funny, awkward pictures. like when matt was posing with the muscle men and a couple came around the corner. it makes everyone laugh.
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this couple was headed to the same jazz performance as we were. oh, heaven. i loved everything about this show. i especially loved watching the couples in the different stages of their relationships. young guys bringing girlfriends, golden oldies, people who are obviously uncomfortable. on valentine's day you see the whole gamete. we were the ones making out in the back. just kidding. kind of.
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mostly we saved it for the elevator.
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beeee good.

She reminds me of the little girl in E.T.

Which made me really want to watch E.T.

So we did and two out of the four kids had nightmares that night.
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This is a sugar-sweet girl.
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Who has no problem keeping up with her brothers.
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This morning at the dentist the hygienist was asking me all about my kids. She said, "if you'd had another boy do you think you would have kept trying?" I mumbled (because who can really answer questions at the dentist??), "Nah, four's a lot." But thinking back we probably would have been pretty tempted to keep going. There's just something so incredible about little girls.

Especially Evy.