Monday, December 30, 2013

this is gonna be the best day of my life.

1. Finn, grandpa asked, "what do you want for your birthday?" and you said, "a cupcake" and then grandpa said "Finn, you are so hard to please."
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2. Ossi, you made up a song about being a rockstar and you asked, "can I sing it for you?" When I said yes you pulled out a mullet wig and put it on your head. Then you sang to me. photo _DSC1853_zps93a6b036.gif photo _DSC1860_zps7083dfbd.jpg photo _DSC1783_zpsc23b8583.jpg photo _DSC1748_zpsc861cad6.jpg photo _DSC1791_zps2db3f74e.jpg photo _DSC1835_zps0022cf38.jpg photo _DSC1840_zps5b57d48f.jpg photo _DSC1772_zps5bb0d67e.gif photo _DSC1715_zps75b4fc5b.jpg photo _DSC1707_zps7064d2ad.jpg
3. Evy, Liam said, "you can have a bit of my toast if you say you are a girl." You said, "I. am. a. girl." And then you stuffed his whole piece of toast into your mouth.
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4. Liam, you spent a good amount of time today looking at yourself in the mirror with a magnifying glass over your mouth. I can't stop thinking of your giant, toothless grin.
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I can't exactly explain the kind of happiness that I am feeling right now.

My house is a total mess and I am calm.

It's past midnight and I am not worried about waking up tomorrow.

Any heartache or trial that has reached me recently feels like a necessary step in the right direction.


Maybe it's because I've been eating so many fresh veggies in the past couple of days. Maybe It's because I deactivated facebook. Maybe it's because I just finished reading an incredible book (for the second time). Maybe it's because I have been listening to this song over and over.

At bedtime tonight we were dancing with stuffed animals to this song. I was alive exactly in the moment. I wasn't taking pictures or thinking about how I was going to fit it into a facebook status, I was just living it and I felt like I had found the secret of life.

"I don't know why these things have to be transmitted by word of mouth, he thought. It wasn't exactly that they were secrets; God revealed his secrets easily to all creatures.

He only had one explanation for this fact: things have to be transmitted this way because they were made up from the pure life, and this kind of life cannot be captured in pictures or words.

Because people become fascinated with pictures and words, and wind up forgetting the Language of the World."
-Paulo Coelho, The Alchemist

1 comment:

Michelle said...

I've been following you for a while now. Long enough not to remember how I happened across you and you beautiful family.
I just want you to know your posts have brought me such peace and joy. I believe in you and what you are doing. You inspire me. I am only a single mother of one son, but I still feel such a connection with you.
Please don't ever stop blogging. You may never know how many people you reach and how much you enrich their lives.