trampoline.

lately some family members have purchased new homes (yay!), which has me reflecting a little on our move to our "now" house.

 i remember walking through this home with our realtor and wondering if it would work as our new world.  

 i remember we were walking through the back yard when i heard the doorbell ring inside. one of the boys had run around to the front and tried to come back to us through the house.

 i walked back through the house, alone for a moment then, and reached for the door handle.

 time crunched in on itself and in that moment i knew that i was answering my door, that i had already answered this door dozens of time in my future.

 it was so sad to leave the trampoline of our old home. this trampoline we'd put into the ground as a family of toddlers with shovels.

 matt and i set aside a large "fun" budget when we moved to invest in our home environment. i remember spending time each day on craigslist looking for a fantastic new trampoline. the more i looked, the more my idea of what we needed grew (fancier, bigger). after a while i started feeling this horribly sick lifestyle-inflation, like a pressure in my chest, every time i thought about getting a trampoline. so we donated the trampoline money to something important to us instead. 

we missed the trampoline, but not for long. shortly after that my brother's family needed a place to store their trampoline for a time and they brought it here for us to use. (we'll have to get them a new one when they need it back because the kids have loved the net to pieces and jumped the joints to cracks.) 

the world is full. so much love is floating around us all. and when we get that heavy feeling that motivates us to give our surplus away i know we can confidently send it back into the atmosphere. it will rain back onto us later.