peter pan inspired photo-shoot with sisters.
just for fun.
speaking of "fun." duke is taking me to see them. (insert a dozen exclamation points)
he said, "i can't keep this a secret from you any longer." and then he told me we'd be going.
i asked him how long he'd had the tickets.
he said, "since wednesday."
i reminded him that it was only thursday. and we laughed because he can never zip it for surprises when he knows I'll flip.
i love his face when he sees me so surprised and ecstatic. i can tell that's why he gives up the game.
he simply cannot wait to make me happy.
last night i dreamed that our society was totally whack. i dreamed that a lady at church was setting me up with her son and i just had to go with it because she was my elder. my marriage to duke didn't matter, we just had to give one-another away.
we sat together, me duke and the son (who is not a person i know), and the other man put his arm around me. my heart shattered. the dream went on like that for a while, more moments of agony and death to my soul, until i could take no more.
i yelled, "i do not love your son. i love my [duke]! i will always love [duke] and no one else! i am his! i've given him myself! we have so many plans and they are ours! he must be the one to raise his children, no one else! i love him, i love him!"
my sister spoke up then as a witness, unfolding a notebook scribbled full with occasions of our love expressions.
all the anguish left me then.
i awoke.
and that's when i decided that if something should ever happen to him, i would not remarry.
i could not remarry.
i woke him up to tell him. and i made him promise not to die until we are very old.
he smiled a sleepy smile and said he'd try his best. then he rolled over and went back to sleep.
i must shout the words of my dream with my waking voice.
i love my husband! i will always love him and no one else! i am his! i've given him myself! we have so many plans and they are ours! he must be the one to raise his children, no one else! i love him, i love him!
speaking of "fun." duke is taking me to see them. (insert a dozen exclamation points)
he said, "i can't keep this a secret from you any longer." and then he told me we'd be going.
i asked him how long he'd had the tickets.
he said, "since wednesday."
i reminded him that it was only thursday. and we laughed because he can never zip it for surprises when he knows I'll flip.
i love his face when he sees me so surprised and ecstatic. i can tell that's why he gives up the game.
he simply cannot wait to make me happy.
last night i dreamed that our society was totally whack. i dreamed that a lady at church was setting me up with her son and i just had to go with it because she was my elder. my marriage to duke didn't matter, we just had to give one-another away.
we sat together, me duke and the son (who is not a person i know), and the other man put his arm around me. my heart shattered. the dream went on like that for a while, more moments of agony and death to my soul, until i could take no more.
i yelled, "i do not love your son. i love my [duke]! i will always love [duke] and no one else! i am his! i've given him myself! we have so many plans and they are ours! he must be the one to raise his children, no one else! i love him, i love him!"
my sister spoke up then as a witness, unfolding a notebook scribbled full with occasions of our love expressions.
all the anguish left me then.
i awoke.
and that's when i decided that if something should ever happen to him, i would not remarry.
i could not remarry.
i woke him up to tell him. and i made him promise not to die until we are very old.
he smiled a sleepy smile and said he'd try his best. then he rolled over and went back to sleep.
i must shout the words of my dream with my waking voice.
i love my husband! i will always love him and no one else! i am his! i've given him myself! we have so many plans and they are ours! he must be the one to raise his children, no one else! i love him, i love him!
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