growth spurt
I know that when my darlings sleep, when they fall asleep quickly and wake up late, when they seem so tired in the middle of the day, that they're likely to grow half an inch in a month. They sleep like life's weight is resting on them. They sleep like that when the push and stress of growing brings out the dark circles under their eyes.
Finn has grown about an inch since December. When I measured him on the heigh wall last night I thought, "no wonder he's been so tired." This kind of growth is exhausting.
I know that when my darlings eat, when they stuff their faces with anything I put in front of them, when they seem to have a hollow leg, they're likely to display some new strength. They eat like that when they're rapidly learning. They eat like that when they are thinking a lot, playing a lot, working a lot. They eat like that when they are feeling alive.
Maybe living growth is on its way with the Spring. There have been waves of energy and life, but I would say that the general feel of the last two years has been "stretch." Growing through stress and strain. A blue midst surrounds me. Not a depression. Not that dark, deep blue of a raging storm. More like a blue ocean to swim. A beautiful, friendly sea that stretches out as far as my narrow sight.My arms are tired. My legs are tired. My eyes are tired. When I reach my voice to Heaven I feel the love of a Father. He tells me I'm going through a growth spurt and that it's normal to be tired. He tells me it's okay to have dark circles and that it doesn't matter what people thing. He tells me that the other type of growth is near. And I believe Him.
Maybe living growth is on its way with the Spring. There have been waves of energy and life, but I would say that the general feel of the last two years has been "stretch." Growing through stress and strain. A blue midst surrounds me. Not a depression. Not that dark, deep blue of a raging storm. More like a blue ocean to swim. A beautiful, friendly sea that stretches out as far as my narrow sight.My arms are tired. My legs are tired. My eyes are tired. When I reach my voice to Heaven I feel the love of a Father. He tells me I'm going through a growth spurt and that it's normal to be tired. He tells me it's okay to have dark circles and that it doesn't matter what people thing. He tells me that the other type of growth is near. And I believe Him.
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